Yo, what up.
I have a minute while I’m eating lunch before I leave for class. I just had cordon bleu and a side of corn, some tea, and I had blueberry greek yogurt with scrambled eggs, salsa and a tortilla for breakfast.
These are all good things. I like the feeling of having eaten complete, decent meals.
I started writing an essay that I’ve been procrastinating on today. That is also a good thing.
These past few days have been pretty bad on an emotional level. I’d been feeling really great, and then I had a fainting episode and hit my head, and I forgot to take my medication for a few days.
I get angry, and sad, and frustrated, and helpless, hopeless. I forget if what I’m doing in life has a purpose or direction. I start to lose faith that I can accomplish things. Anything.
I’ve been so tired, as I usually am, but I can’t get through a day without taking a nap. I went to the doctor, and she suggested that it might be my medication, and that scared me a lot. The first medication was rough, and the transition to this one was even more rough. I feel okay on this one, but staying on it might mean that I’ll keep being too tired to function.
I’m only taking a few classes this semester, and I’m not working nearly as much as I used to. I’m glad that I have enough time to compensate for my fatigue.
I guess the point of this post is to remind myself that I have done and can do good things. I can do things, period. Being as tired and sad as I’ve been this weekend, I just need to remember that I am capable. Maybe I can’t accomplish monumental, heroic tasks right now, but
that’s okay. Just keeeep goooiiinnnggg….
"I don’t care what you believe. Just believe in it." - Shepherd Book, Serenity